When I feel those feelings

Always looking at them even when they are looking way

Being there for them even when they don't know it

Caring so much that it makes you weak

Doing everything when they do nothing

Eventually being shut out when you're ready to let them in

Fighting these feelings even when it's a losing battle

Giving all you can to someone that takes all that they can

Holding onto hope even when you watch it disintegrate

Internally com busting while trying to hold it all together externally

Jumping out of the comfort zone and hitting a brick wall

Keeping a hold of positive even when you are positively negative

Letting go of that dream as it just turned into your nightmare

Making sense of a situation when it's a situation due to a lack of sense

Offering your insides to someone that yanks them outside

Played by someone whose life is a game

Queening someone who is no more than a Joike

Ready to move on when your heart is standing still

Saying "I'll find someone" when you don't want to look for them

Trying to keep your head held high even when everything is pulling it down

Understanding that what you want might not want you back

Victory is felt but for them having the power you just took back for yourself

Walking away in a stand still situation

Xraying what you felt inside even when the images came back blurry

Yes is what I want to say but No decides to leap in front

Zebra is my spirit animal because I wear these polar opposites at once

Cover Me

The cover of a book can be very appealing,

but inside the book is much more revealing.

To finish a chapter may feel like a mile,

a small goal that may warrant a smile.

But look on the other side; the writer,

to write just a section as a struggle fighter.

How do you tell the people that stare?

Wondering why mentally, they won't meet you there?

Or the ones you fear won't care.

Hell, worse, or the worst, the ones of all,

the ones of all that made you fall.

All of these people, all of these fears,

opening yourself to avoid numerous tears.

To share just a cover is far from tough,

but to explain the book can be rough.

But, I must do it, to make my inside pretty,

share all my bullshit quite witty and gritty.

Just a heads up

I'm going to start posting things I have written. So feel free to review my life as if it were a movie